Ambition Mission

I don't have that many dreams and I'm not that ambitious.  But I do have some.  The most important, of course, is school.  I have to graduate.  It's either that or be a total failure.  There's so much I have to do in order to graduate this year.  I need to do some online school on top of my regular schooling.  And even then I'll be lucky.  I'm not the best student.  At all.  I think I've had one year where my grades were just awesome and that was in junior high.  My lowest grade was a B-.  I was pretty happy about that.  Ever since then, however, my grades have not been very good.  I need to bust this year in order to graduate.  That means I can't miss a day and if I do, I need to get my catch up work ASAP.  My dad is going to be pissed if this year doesn't work out.  I've been doing the best I possibly can but apparently my best isn't enough.  I need to give someone elses best.  I need to give Kayla's best.  My best is NOT enough to get me to pass.  I need to do even better this year or I'm screwed.

Along with this, I've decided on two things.  For one, I've decided that I want to restore old cars for a living.  Earlier this year, I went to a car show and that was that.  I had picked probably one of the dumbest jobs I had ever thought of.  Not to mention, I have no idea how to restore cars.  But, I think show cars are gorgeous.  I love car and I love vintage things.  That car show sort of spawned this Frankenstein  child of an idea of mine.  It's stupid and I should just stick to something generic but I really want this.  I just need someone to teach me because auto mechanics in school hasn't taught me much of anything.

Another, and more recent idea of mine, is about Sephora.  I've decided that slowly, over however long  it takes, I'm going to gather one of everything in my closest Sephora store.  If you don't know, or aren't from SLC, the Sephora store is in Fashion Place Mall.  May I mention the face that this place is HUGE!!!  Just for reference, (and I think all VS's are the same size) it's the same size ans about 1 1/2 Victoria Secret's.  Out here, those are fairly good sized.  So, if you haven't grasped the idea yet, that is a whole hell of a lot of make up!  And I want one of everything.  This is going to take FOREVER but it's worth it.  Especially if I want to get better with make up, which I do.  I'm going to buy them one particular section at a time.  And I'm going to have a LOT of makeup cases.  I just want to have a ton of choices (:



Don't forget yourself.

Violence.

I never really thought about it.  By that, I mean how many people are jumped or randomly attacked by "straight edgers".  I've known quite a few people that have been jumped by them.  Most people who oppose this random STUPID senseless violence call them "Hate Edge".  I know TRUE straight edgers.  You can ask them, Straight edge is about doing what you feel is right.  They see it as a personal choice.  True and honest straight edgers oppose VIOLENCE.  These people that find out who does drugs or HAS done drugs or drinks or used to drink and then go and hit them in the face with rocks and jump them...They don't deserve the title of being straight edge.  What they deserve, is a fair amount of time locked up.  They don't attack alone.  They always have their little posse with them.  The people they attack, however, are almost always alone.  If anything, they deserve the title of "gang".  No one deserves to have their cheek broken and nose broken simply because they like Rolling or drinking or doing whatever.  It's their choice and just because they've made that choice, doesn't mean they need to have their faces broken.  It's just not right.  What did these people that get jumped by these kids EVER do to them?


If you're wondering what spurred this, I'll tell you.  My best friend had a rock thrown in his face just recently.  He now needs surgery to fix his cheek and nose.  He doesn't do anything to anyone.  He's one of the most passive people I know.  Just because he makes choices for himself doesn't mean he deserves to have his face bashed in with a rock.  It's not fair, honestly.  He never deserved to have this happen to him.  Truthfully, if anyone has any idea of who did this, let me know.  Because I really REALLY want to have him press charges.  This is ridiculous.